But after tonight I had a really great time and learned how to enjoy it. And even though I was with my friends I skated by myself most of the time and found the joy all by myself and just had fun and would skate with whoever i wanted to next. This whole thing of new year, new me, new outlook, had been really good. Just by focusing on myself and what i need to get done i can get a better grip of my life. Single life still has its downsides but the universe will put things in my path to not make it seem so bad and I learn by myself to get past it. Winter is always the oddest time for me, at least emotionally but i feel like i’m in a better place now than i was in the past. And my surroundings are so much better than they have ever been before.